Today Is one of the few days I will actually rant about something, so please excuse me as I express my frustration regarding how expensive things are. I am a broke college student who cannot work for two reasons. The first one is because I am a theatre major and therefore I have no free time whatsoever. However, the second one is the real problem, because even if I wanted to work, I would not be able to because the immigration system in this country has seriously tampered with my life. I immigrated with my family to the US a few months before September 11th, 2001 - at possibly the worst possible time - and I have been here for going on 10 years. I cannot work, even though I am 100% LEGAL. This makes it impossible to earn money, and I am therefore completely dependent on my parents for money. So, with this in mind, I am doing a diet, which requires me purchasing only healthy food for it to work, and it is so expensive that I am constantly draining my bank account - and it is not even my money - it's my father's. I find it completely ridiculous that steroid free plain organic yogurt, fruits, vegetables and meat/seafood is so outrageously expensive and all the crap that gives me a lumpy ass and makes me fat and depressed is super cheap. It is almost as if even the grocery store has become my enemy and is just tempting me to fail. It is ridiculous. I buy really healthy food, but I cannot control how much things cost.
To some people, the thought of being able to spend your father's money on food may sound amazing, but when you are on a strict diet and you are continuously having to ask for more, I personally feel bad. I know I am eating really healthily and I feel great, but i'm at the point where I drained my account and now have no money for yoga. Maybe it would be cheaper to just buy a good DVD and stay in the comfort of my own dorm and make my roommate repeatedly kick my ass to do it...
Anyway, this morning I had my delicious bowl of plain yogurt with Stevia sweetener and half a grapefruit. To some that might sound like the worst breakfast in existence, but honestly it is actually my favorite meal of the day, except when I have steak for dinner :). It is just so clean and fresh and It fills me up without making me feel bloated and nasty and in addition in my case, depressed when I eat pancakes and muffins and cereal(YAY Celiac Disease...Not!)Anyway, for lunch I had steamed zucchini and mozzarella cheese. In retrospect it was not the best recipe because the flavors were too different. At least now I know. It seems like this entire diet is a learning curve I have to deal with and I just wish that I had a great big money tree outside my room or that my refrigerator would just re-stock by itself. Tonight will be a chicken salad, Eurydice rehearsal, Study date with my Biology notes and some much needed R and R.
Au Revoir for now.
Spending money - even if its someone else's - can never be bad if its on healthy great food! So do NOT worry about the cost, but focus rather on the money you are saving by eating well and giving your body the very best it needs.
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